Lately I've been thinking about perspective. I do not see things the way you may see them. Your life experiences are much different from mine which has shaped part of the way that i think, feel, and act. I was thinking about autism and this whole journey we have taken with Joshua. His perspective is so different from mine. I don't understand what it is like from his side, I've been so focused on my side, my thoughts and my feelings and how to "fix" him. God has brought him SO far and i truly believe with all of my heart that he is healed. I look at him and i see the touch of God. Yes he still does have some "issues" but my perspective is changing. I saw a book on amazon that grabbed my attention. " A blessing and a Curse; Autism and me." It is a book written by a man who is autistic. I love how amazon gives you glimpses into the book so i took a look and i knew i had to order it. He was talking about remembering things as a child and how he felt. Amazing... I'm excited to read it and just to try to gain a better perspective of how my sons feel. Did you know that many experts believe that Albert
Einstein was Autistic? He didn't speak until the age of 3 and it wasn't until the age of 9 that he really spoke clearly. Also other "famous" people who have done incredible things have been thought to be autistic. Perspective. We could think of those that have "special needs" and who don't meet social standards or norms and educational deadlines to be a burden on society. Why put time and energy into caring for these people when who knows what they will turn out to be if anything? The bigger picture needs to be looked at.. we need to look through God's perspective, we need to look through his eyes and see the beauty and potential in a persons soul. I wish we all could look through the eyes of the Lord and see his perspective. I know that he is drawing me closer more every day and teaching me how to see through his perspective, but i still have so much of my own perspective to shed. Sigh...
In updated news, i talked with Joshua's former teachers and i will be signing a form on Monday to "revoke" Joshua's
IEP. (Basically cancel) It went smooth and well talking to the teacher and she was very supportive of our choice.
We finally were able to collect Urine from Daniel to send in a test to see how his body is functioning and if there is anything we need to do to supplement and help with problems he may be having. We did this with Joshua about 1 year and a half ago and it made a huge difference. So we are hoping that this will help to make a difference with Daniel also and just help him to feel better.
Elijah is a cutie as always. I love watching him grow up. He interested in everything. He always wants to play with his brothers and he wants to be where everyone else is. He's just a blessing and a sweetheart.
Matt is doing well, working on his shop. There are some stresses at work, but show me a person who isn't stressed at work!
I am hanging in there and doing
exceptionally well. God has given lots of extra strength and energy and Love for what he has called me to do. I've been finding so much joy in my life and the simple things. God is so good.
Off to bed... we have someone coming tomorrow that may possibly be helping out with the boys for a couple hours a week.. so I'm pretty excited about that and hoping that it's a good fit. Hope everyone is enjoying their September! I just LOVE this season!
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