Just like Jesus

Alright so I'll admit. There has been many a time where i have felt like Jesus has no idea what it's like to be a mom. In my selfishness i would think about how he never had to deal with the daily in and out of constantly be needed and wanted and just drained by children. Looking back now i just have to laugh, because Oh boy was i wrong. Just because Jesus was not a "mom" does not mean he has no idea what i am going though... he knows EXACTLY what i am going though. I've been reading a book called "Real Moms... Real Jesus." by Jill Savage and it has been an eye opener and given me a new perspective. Jesus definitely understands me and has been there. From never getting a break, people always wanting answers and wanting to be healed and fed and followed... the list goes on and on.

I am his child... who constantly comes to him, wanting to be loved and understood. I don't understand where he is bringing me and what he has planned. I whine and cry and complain. I come to him with everything, and he is patient with me. I need discipline and guidance. I need the constant reminder to do the things that need to be done. I need affirmation. I am his child.

There is something special that happens to your relationship with Christ when you have children. Not only do you understand the depth of God sacrificing his only son at a deeper level... but also the depth of love that Jesus has for us. The sacrifice it is for Him to be the gap between us and God. That depth of love is beyond comprehension, and I most certainly am not deserving. I am a rebellious needy child, yet he still wraps me up in his arms every time and whispers acceptance and love to me.

It is only though the strength of the Lord that i can be any percent of a good parent to my children. It is only through the example of Christs love for me that i can love on my children. There is a song by philips craig and dean that really explains my heart on how i feel about my kids. It is a daddy singing from his perspective, but i can relate as well :)

I Want To Be Just Like You - Phillips, Craig & Dean (Lifeline)

He climbs in my lap for a goodnight hug
He calls me Dad and I call him Bub
With his faded old pillow and a bear named Pooh
He snuggles up close and says, "I want to be like you"
I tuck him in bed and I kiss him goodnight
Trippin' over the toys as I turn out the light
And I whisper a prayer that someday he'll see
He's got a father in God 'cause he's seen Jesus in me

Lord, I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be like me

Got to admit I've got so far to go
Make so many mistakes and I'm sure that You know
Sometimes it seems no matter how hard I try
With all the pressures in life I just can't get it all right
But I'm trying so hard to learn from the best
Being patient and kind, filled with Your tenderness
'Cause I know that he'll learn from the things that he sees
And the Jesus he finds will be the Jesus in me
Right now from where he stands I may seem mighty tall
But it's only 'cause I'm learning from the best Father of them all

Lord, I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be like me