Just when i feel like I can receive the strength from the Lord to stay here... just when i feel close to peace and acceptance... just when I start to feel a little settled... we get a call from a realtor who wants to show our house on Sunday....
and now i feel all out of sorts again! will we stay or will me move?
I guess we'll see if there is an offer
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Today is...
Matt's birthday! Happy 27th birthday my amazing, loving, kind, strong, hardworking, God honoring, Man! I love you! xoxoxox
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I am really enjoying having pippin. He provides entertainment for the boys and he gets us out and exploring more up and down our hill. He is such a good little goat. Very social, yet calm. It will be fun to watch him grow and bring him on hiking trips with us. Last night was the first night that he was fenced in with Henry. He was much happier to be able to free range and to be able to be near his new friend. This morning when i went to check on them Pip was actually laying outside of the fence (he must of went through it in the night or the morning) near where Henry was laying on the inside of the fence. So it's nice to know that he will stick around when he gets free. 3/4 of the area that they are fenced in right now is electric fencing... so he can fit through it pretty easy even if he does get shocked.. though it seems he is learning his lesson. The ducks on the other hand I'm not sure about. I found them on the inside of the fence and one of them seemed like she couldn't quack.. so she may have gotten zapped. I'm sure that they will all learn sooner or later.
In the midst of getting Pip, we've lost Roxy. When we first put up the electric fence Roxy ran into it and was so startled that she ran off not to be seen again until the next morning down the road. Since then she had stayed clear of the area until last night. We were putting the goats in their new area when we hear roxy running back through the woods towards us, and then we hear her crying and running away. She ran into the fencing again. we haven't seen her since then. Our neighbors haven't seen her either. She does have a collar and tags on her, so hopefully if someone finds her they will call us. If i don't hear anything tomorrow I will probably go down to the humane society and check out to see if anyone brought her in.. though i hope that they would just call us. Sigh... i really hope that we can find her because i really do not want to put the time and energy into training another dog... but it's a necessity here to have one to keep away the coyotes and other predators from coming after the other more vulnerable animals.
In other new, I'm working hard core on getting Daniel potty trained. That boy pees like it's going out of style! Hopefully he will connect the dots and want to pee in the toilet soon! He doesn't mind sitting on it.. he just hasn't connected it quit yet.
Matt's business is picking up. He has been generating a lot of interest in his hydro electric system. I think once the word is really out there we will be getting more business because alternative energy sources and living green are BIG right now, and people are investing to save money in the long run. It's been really exciting to see things come together for that.
And that's about it for now!
Isn't our life riveting?
In the midst of getting Pip, we've lost Roxy. When we first put up the electric fence Roxy ran into it and was so startled that she ran off not to be seen again until the next morning down the road. Since then she had stayed clear of the area until last night. We were putting the goats in their new area when we hear roxy running back through the woods towards us, and then we hear her crying and running away. She ran into the fencing again. we haven't seen her since then. Our neighbors haven't seen her either. She does have a collar and tags on her, so hopefully if someone finds her they will call us. If i don't hear anything tomorrow I will probably go down to the humane society and check out to see if anyone brought her in.. though i hope that they would just call us. Sigh... i really hope that we can find her because i really do not want to put the time and energy into training another dog... but it's a necessity here to have one to keep away the coyotes and other predators from coming after the other more vulnerable animals.
In other new, I'm working hard core on getting Daniel potty trained. That boy pees like it's going out of style! Hopefully he will connect the dots and want to pee in the toilet soon! He doesn't mind sitting on it.. he just hasn't connected it quit yet.
Matt's business is picking up. He has been generating a lot of interest in his hydro electric system. I think once the word is really out there we will be getting more business because alternative energy sources and living green are BIG right now, and people are investing to save money in the long run. It's been really exciting to see things come together for that.
And that's about it for now!
Isn't our life riveting?
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
On the farm update
working on the fence, post holes have been dug and posts are in place... next is putting up the field fencing
Henry.. little does he know that soon he will have SO much room to roam!
Mckquack and Webby
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Just like Jesus
Alright so I'll admit. There has been many a time where i have felt like Jesus has no idea what it's like to be a mom. In my selfishness i would think about how he never had to deal with the daily in and out of constantly be needed and wanted and just drained by children. Looking back now i just have to laugh, because Oh boy was i wrong. Just because Jesus was not a "mom" does not mean he has no idea what i am going though... he knows EXACTLY what i am going though. I've been reading a book called "Real Moms... Real Jesus." by Jill Savage and it has been an eye opener and given me a new perspective. Jesus definitely understands me and has been there. From never getting a break, people always wanting answers and wanting to be healed and fed and followed... the list goes on and on.
I am his child... who constantly comes to him, wanting to be loved and understood. I don't understand where he is bringing me and what he has planned. I whine and cry and complain. I come to him with everything, and he is patient with me. I need discipline and guidance. I need the constant reminder to do the things that need to be done. I need affirmation. I am his child.
There is something special that happens to your relationship with Christ when you have children. Not only do you understand the depth of God sacrificing his only son at a deeper level... but also the depth of love that Jesus has for us. The sacrifice it is for Him to be the gap between us and God. That depth of love is beyond comprehension, and I most certainly am not deserving. I am a rebellious needy child, yet he still wraps me up in his arms every time and whispers acceptance and love to me.
It is only though the strength of the Lord that i can be any percent of a good parent to my children. It is only through the example of Christs love for me that i can love on my children. There is a song by philips craig and dean that really explains my heart on how i feel about my kids. It is a daddy singing from his perspective, but i can relate as well :)
I Want To Be Just Like You - Phillips, Craig & Dean (Lifeline)
He climbs in my lap for a goodnight hug
He calls me Dad and I call him Bub
With his faded old pillow and a bear named Pooh
He snuggles up close and says, "I want to be like you"
I tuck him in bed and I kiss him goodnight
Trippin' over the toys as I turn out the light
And I whisper a prayer that someday he'll see
He's got a father in God 'cause he's seen Jesus in me
Lord, I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be like me
Got to admit I've got so far to go
Make so many mistakes and I'm sure that You know
Sometimes it seems no matter how hard I try
With all the pressures in life I just can't get it all right
But I'm trying so hard to learn from the best
Being patient and kind, filled with Your tenderness
'Cause I know that he'll learn from the things that he sees
And the Jesus he finds will be the Jesus in me
Right now from where he stands I may seem mighty tall
But it's only 'cause I'm learning from the best Father of them all
Lord, I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be like me
I am his child... who constantly comes to him, wanting to be loved and understood. I don't understand where he is bringing me and what he has planned. I whine and cry and complain. I come to him with everything, and he is patient with me. I need discipline and guidance. I need the constant reminder to do the things that need to be done. I need affirmation. I am his child.
There is something special that happens to your relationship with Christ when you have children. Not only do you understand the depth of God sacrificing his only son at a deeper level... but also the depth of love that Jesus has for us. The sacrifice it is for Him to be the gap between us and God. That depth of love is beyond comprehension, and I most certainly am not deserving. I am a rebellious needy child, yet he still wraps me up in his arms every time and whispers acceptance and love to me.
It is only though the strength of the Lord that i can be any percent of a good parent to my children. It is only through the example of Christs love for me that i can love on my children. There is a song by philips craig and dean that really explains my heart on how i feel about my kids. It is a daddy singing from his perspective, but i can relate as well :)
I Want To Be Just Like You - Phillips, Craig & Dean (Lifeline)
He climbs in my lap for a goodnight hug
He calls me Dad and I call him Bub
With his faded old pillow and a bear named Pooh
He snuggles up close and says, "I want to be like you"
I tuck him in bed and I kiss him goodnight
Trippin' over the toys as I turn out the light
And I whisper a prayer that someday he'll see
He's got a father in God 'cause he's seen Jesus in me
Lord, I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be like me
Got to admit I've got so far to go
Make so many mistakes and I'm sure that You know
Sometimes it seems no matter how hard I try
With all the pressures in life I just can't get it all right
But I'm trying so hard to learn from the best
Being patient and kind, filled with Your tenderness
'Cause I know that he'll learn from the things that he sees
And the Jesus he finds will be the Jesus in me
Right now from where he stands I may seem mighty tall
But it's only 'cause I'm learning from the best Father of them all
Lord, I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You
'Cause he wants to be like me
Sunday, July 11, 2010
We just had the privledge of having a full 24 hours without children, and it was fabulous. Matt and I needed a rest so much. Now i feel refreshed and ready to love on my children. It's been an extreamly difficult year for us. With special needs issues, matt working overtime, building up our business, and having little suport I think it's been one of the hardest years of our marriage. We just have really stuggled to be patient and loving with the kids just feeling so burnt out. So this weekend really felt like a renewing time.
We haven't had any interest in the house lately. We really trust that God knows best and that he's got bigger plans for us that we can't comprehend. with all of the overtime Matt has been working he is actually training for a new position which could possibly move us into a postion with better hours and pay. The house is still for sale, but we are just feeling like maybe God wants us to stay put for now. Though it is really hard for me to put my dream of moving back to the midwest on hold, i know that it may at the time be for the best. Only time will tell. So in the meantime we are actually working on fencing the property. If the house sells or not it's an improvement that is worth the investment. Once the fence is up it will allow Henry (our goat) to free range instead of being tied up. Also we are considering getting another goat as a kid and then raising it to be a pack goat. So when we go hiking and backpacking he then can carry stuff for us :) We haven't even gotten him yet and matt wants to name him Bob. So the plan is if we aren't able to move then next spring we will buy a baby bull and band him (fix him) let him eat our grass and get him nice and chunky and then eat him. From there if all goes well we will expand. Of course our plans will change if the house sells and we are able to move, or if our home business really takes off, or if the patient makes a million dollars. Then we will reevaluate.
Oy! so there a little update for you :) I still have a ton of unfinshed posts on thoughts to publish, but time is precious a minimal to sit on the computer and type these days!
We haven't had any interest in the house lately. We really trust that God knows best and that he's got bigger plans for us that we can't comprehend. with all of the overtime Matt has been working he is actually training for a new position which could possibly move us into a postion with better hours and pay. The house is still for sale, but we are just feeling like maybe God wants us to stay put for now. Though it is really hard for me to put my dream of moving back to the midwest on hold, i know that it may at the time be for the best. Only time will tell. So in the meantime we are actually working on fencing the property. If the house sells or not it's an improvement that is worth the investment. Once the fence is up it will allow Henry (our goat) to free range instead of being tied up. Also we are considering getting another goat as a kid and then raising it to be a pack goat. So when we go hiking and backpacking he then can carry stuff for us :) We haven't even gotten him yet and matt wants to name him Bob. So the plan is if we aren't able to move then next spring we will buy a baby bull and band him (fix him) let him eat our grass and get him nice and chunky and then eat him. From there if all goes well we will expand. Of course our plans will change if the house sells and we are able to move, or if our home business really takes off, or if the patient makes a million dollars. Then we will reevaluate.
Oy! so there a little update for you :) I still have a ton of unfinshed posts on thoughts to publish, but time is precious a minimal to sit on the computer and type these days!
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